4/1/23 2:23 am At home in bed Justin Timberlake – blue ocean floor Justin Timberlake- Mirrors Justin Timberlake- tunnel vision It’s been almost 10 years since I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and honestly it’s been an uphill battle. From not being on the right medication to having scary manic episodes to finally being stable….
Addressing My Infamous Instagram Rant
11/22/22 2:50 am At home Bad Bunny- Efecto Billie Eilish- everything I wanted Arcangel- por amar a ciegas In the summer of 2020 I had a manic episode. This caused me to spend an unbelievable amount of money and went on a long rant that lasted about a few days. When the manic episode finally…
What is bipolar disorder? What does a manic episode look like for me?
5/25/22 21:15pm Lauryn hill- Forgive Them Father Beyonce- Before I let go Kanye West- Saint pablo Multiple locations- work, home, the train What is bipolar disorder? What does a manic episode look like for me? I’ve talked a lot about my struggles with bipolar disorder but have never written a post describing what it actually…
Random post
4-13-22 00:43 Karol G- KG0516 album On the couch Random post It’s been almost a year since I started a blog and I’ve learned a few things about myself. One of those things is that I’m a crappy blogger lol. I only say this because I’m so inconsistent with posting. But hey I gave it…
10/22/21
10/22/21 09:55 Andra Day- “Rise up” At home For months I haven’t written any posts because to be completely honest, I had nothing to write about, or so I thought. I had no idea what to write about. I had moments where I felt like I exposed myself a little too much. My diagnosis is…
What about your friends?
6/15/21 22:29 On my way home- 5 train Songs I’m listening to TLC – “What About Your Friends” Camilla Cabello- “Real Friends” Kanye West- “Real Friends” Well where do I begin? I’ve never had much luck with friends honestly. I mean I had two best friends since I was a kid and it seemed like…
Patience
8/12/2120:49 PMSong Currently playing: Russ- ITALYLocation- At work Shadow Work Prompt:-How can I be kinder to myself? In what ways do I consciously punish myself? In what ways do I unconsciously punish myself? I can be kinder to myself by being more patient with myself. I have my good days where everything seems to be…
MANIA
6/9/16 Time: 5:47AM Song/album: Frankie P- “Hazy Nights In The Heights” Location: Home in Bed I’m invincible, I am a goddess Nothing can bring me down Rushing through the streets, Sped up speech Can you keep up? I am confident! You can’t tell me That i’m not! I am powerful even with my racing thoughts …
You Took Something
July 7th, 2021 11:29 No music Couch You took something from me A part of me that has left me feeling less whole You took something from me Something that was never yours to begin with You took something from me And now I don’t know how to get it back You took something from…
Surviving A Psych hospital pt.3
7/1/21 11:23 Kitchen table James Blunt- “Where Is My Mind?” Giveon- “Vanish” In March of 2017, I had what you would probably call a psychotic break. I lost touch with reality that ended with me being hospitalized once again. But this time, the police were involved. In a different post I’ll touch more on what…
Surviving a psych hospital pt. 2
6/24/21 22:53 J Balvin- “Gris” Frank ocean- “Godspeed” On the train In 2017 I had a manic episode. A very severe one. It lasted for about three months and it was followed by a severe depressive episode. My oldest sister made the difficult decision of having me hospitalized the hard way. I wouldn’t go to…
Surviving a psych hospital pt.1
6/18/21 13:11 On the train Songs Anuel AA- “Keii” Kehlani- “Distraction” Miley Cyrus feat Dua Lipa-“Prisoner” Miguel- “where’s the fun in forever” So I thought I should write about my experiences in Psych hospitals. I have been hospitalized a total of five times in the last 8 years. Only one of those was voluntary. There…
Having Confidence or the lack thereof
6/6/21 03:28 Bad bunny-Yo perreo sola My place of inspiration-the kitchen The amount of weight I allowed myself to gain has been detrimental to my mental health but also to my wellbeing in general. I’ve never been this heavy before and I didn’t know how to deal. I climb stairs to get to my apartment…
Creating Memories
6/10/21 12:38 PM On the train Kehlani-nunya I want to write but it’s been pretty uncomfortable writing on the train so I’m writing it in my notes. Can’t remember when I last wrote anything. Let me check that out. Okay so 4 days ago. It’s been so damn hot. Today it’s finally just in the…
ACCEPTANCE
02:18 4/23/21 Location: the couch R&B and chill playlist- “this way” Khalid feat H.E.R. THERAPY HW 1- things i have lost through my diagnosis 2- things i have gained through my diagnosis Let’s start this by saying living with a mental illness isn’t peachy. Most times I feel boxed in or like I’m hiding in…
Intro…
Date-5/24/21 Location- at work Time-20:13 Song- Maroon 5 “Give a little more” Hey there! *waves* Hope you’re having an amazing day and that this post finds you well. I must admit I feel a little weird and nervous. Its my first post! Ahhhhhhhh! But I’m also excited. So why am I writing…